Even though we walk a dark valley…

Today is Friday.

The LORD is my shepherd;

I have all that I need.

He lets me rest in green meadows;

he leads me beside peaceful streams.

He renews my strength.

He guides me along right paths

bringing honor to his name.

Even when I walk

through the darkest valley,

I will not be afraid,

for you are close beside me.

Your rod and your staff

protect and comfort me.

You prepare a feast for me

in the presence of my enemies.

You honor me by anointing my head with oil.

My cup overflows with blessings.

Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me

all the days of my life,

and I will live in the house of the LORD




Today is Thursday. Today I have renewed my resolve to be kind; to be merciful; to be forgiving; to be courageous. There are nasty, power hungry villains that troll this world to derive pleasure from cruelty and God help me, I don’t want to be like them.

I pray for the weary; the struggling; the suffering. I pray those with malicious intent to fall into their own traps and be exposed for who they really are.

If you are going to suffer, then suffer for truth, for integrity. Duplicity puts on masks and smiles like a shark. But, truth will come to shine like the noonday sun and only those who choose to wear sunglasses will remain in the darkness of ignorance.



Today is Tuesday. Today, I understand more about myself, about Paul and especially, about Matt.

Persecution by those who are never held accountable can and does change you as a person.

I told some more than once that our lives after Matt’s release would just start the second chapter of the nightmare. No one can really understand the depth of wickedness we must face unless he/she has been abused and suffered by those in power.

It has begun. We are together as a family and try as my son might to walk with honour and integrity, those who wield power continue to persecute with a sickening vengeance.

There is beauty in truth. There is grace and healing in compassion. There is a strength to bend but not break; courage to face malice without returning evil for evil.

We are weary; we are heavy hearted; we are battle scarred. Yet we know who keeps our souls and we will wait for the One who executes real justice.

β€œIntegrity is choosing courage over comfort; choosing
what is right over what is fun, fast, or easy; and choosing to practice
our values rather than simply professing them.” Brene Brown

To all our friends out there, we love you. Keep us in your hearts and honest prayers. πŸ˜˜πŸ’ž


Today is Friday. Today, I received a letter from Joe. He was given permission to transfer to the prison where Chad is now located. These guys were together for at least a couple of years before Chad was transferred.

They had become the son and father to each other. When Chad was moved, I became very concerned for both of them. They were devastated and scared for one another.

Today, I was given $50 to use for “my peeps in prison.” I can start putting baskets together for them for Christmas.

I missed Chad’s birthday and that made me sad and frustrated. But, I put in some extra hours and was able to send him stamps depicting dinosaurs. He asks for stamps frequently.

I can’t visit my peeps in prison like Jesus encourages; but, I can write and send books and funds, and Christmas baskets.

I am looking forward to a letter telling me Chad and Joe are able to see each other again..;)

Love is an action.

The perpetual lie

Today is Thursday. We have power with our words. Some people have even more power depending on what occupation they have or what status they enjoy. For example, it seems that if you’re quite wealthy than your word can be trusted. Or, if you’re law enforcement or an official with the gov’t, then you must be a paragon of integrity and therefore your words are true.

The fact is everyone lies. Maybe the lie is small in our mind and we can justify it like telling your spouse she looks great in that dress when it could serve best as a costume for Halloween.

Maybe you lie about your weight or your age. Those kind of lies albeit deception, they won’t necessarily harm anyone.

How would you like to be the subject of a malicious and connived lie started several years ago, suffer and pay dearly for it and then find out you must still pay for this lie?

I used to think there were decent people who recognized the duplicitousness of our so called justice system for which they worked and tried to do the right thing.

I was wrong. I am wrong.

Today, I walked into a federal building. I had my phone taken. I set off the metal detector so I had to be wanded. As I shook like a leaf in the wind, I watched someone I love shake and begin to lose his composure as he watched helplessly.

Ever wonder how Jewish people felt in Nazi Germany when the Stasi came to question?

I can tell you how it feels. Thing is, would you believe me?

Would you care?